fraulein gigolo

ah, the romance of berlin between the wars. so decadent. i like to imagine what i might be like, to live that sort of way, in abject poverty but with memories of greatness and a few trinkets of the past to keep up a sort of appearance of gentility.



and there is a magnificent sim, that recreates it. so i can be just as pretend unhappy, and then go off back into my regular comfortable middle class existence.

weimar fraulein gigolo juana wears:

Swansong blackflame outfit &
twisted Swiss stockings from RFyre
Vamp Blood Red ultralight skin by Nomine
CReepy Eyes by Negriposi
Clara bow hair by Helena Stringer
Shooting star pet cemetery hat by split pea
corded neck corset by ru
Anthracite skull earrings by deco
bloody bonehead bracelet by retox
allicagor pumps by stilletto moody
cigarette holder by Mika

at the 1920s Weimar berlin sim
listening to
Schoner Gigolo by Dajos Bela tanzorchestra
&
Kannst Du pfeifen Johanna? by Harry Hardins
tanzorchestra

random ransacking

sigh. i totally need to find a better hobby. today, unaccustomed to having so much spare time, became very bored and started digging through the untamed (and uncataloged) inventory.....



i didn't realize i had this...its very courtesanish...from un jour, a place i really like.

la belle manuel wears:
la vie n'es qu'une comedie outfit (with chair) by un jour
autumn chignon coffee by bp
the rise of lolita ophelia skin by violent seduction
nose piercing by avz
sugar skulls and roses tattoos by otaku designs
carpe noctem boots by nightshade designs

private eye

i am very fond of koinup....they have the most interestingly cool things there. i rely on it most to find new and interesting sims. and by extension i end up learning new and ever more obscure factoids. like enka, a style of japanese music.



this sim is apparently a kind of red light district prevalent in japan before wwii. i was wearing a newly acquired accessory from a designer i like but who has appeared to be inactive for nearly 2 years. its apparently for photographing ghosts. if there are any in second life, i can't say i have seen them, but it made me think of private eyes snooping around. and i wandered around but found no ghosts to speak of.

juana p.i. wears:

egyptian dress by fumi
peppa hair by diversity hair
trophy skulls hat by i love 13
neck corset by ru
hair rose wine by gfield
skull pendant, coffee bangles, & armlets by grim bros
apneatic embrace corset & stockings by blacklist
carpe noctem shoes by nightshade designs
dollhouse skin 25 by lionskins
camera obscura, heaven's tears eyes, and pose by tohru

in the akesan sim
listening to Ich bin von Kopf bis Fuss auf Liebe engestelt
sung by marlene dietrich

asylum street spanker

i swear to god that is the name of a real band in austin. and funny too because yesterday as i drove up to the sex shop where i take my pole dancing lessons i noticed the scraggly little graveyard alongside the road. if i am correct in my suspicion, it is the (state hospital) aka. asylum graveyard....

...the same grounds where roses bloom, and that sheltered a friend of mine for a short period of time. but i digress.

i was bored and exploring and tonight felt like going to an SL asylum. for the most part they are sort of boring. this one place i landed "the rubberdoll asylum" sounded weird and then i realized it was a fetish club for people who like their slaves encased in layers of latex.

i can't help myself. it makes me laugh. and i don't mean to offend the lovers of saran-wrapped slaves-american community, but it just cracks me up.

this place was so interesting because it was done up all scary white and black and shiny, and there were these odd little padded latex cells on one floor.

the most hilarious part was the "slave gymnasium" area...they had the most hilariously bizarre contraptions there...they pretty much put me in mind of extreme versions of pilates machines. and said machines were amply equipped with wonderfully stupid facial expressions....

ooh! those shoes make me so happy! juana wears:

bird's nest outfit by un jour
amaya posture collar, fetish stockings, and arm belts by gauze
graphite skin by cutea benelli
triple ice hair by bp
dragonfly gloves by i totally can't figure it out.
carpe noctem boots by blacklist
zydratic complication eyes by aura falta

grande horizontale

i am so into steampunk stuff again today. i want to go to an abney park concert next month........apparently they will be in dallas. and so i am all in a tizzy, what in the world should i wear? troy says no he won't go. so i will just have to be alone.

i already ordered these cool boots: http://www.goodgoth.com/whimsey.gif and am in a bit of a happy tizzy. i have a wickedly fierce corset, so no worries there.....and am amusing myself looking at images of grandes horizontales and actresses...i love la belle otero. its interesting too, a totally different clothes language. in the SCA it was always the period police and looking a certain way, it amuses me to be looking at this other style, and how different it is, sort of the opposite. ive never worn a bustle either....hoops yes, bustles no.

i already thought how fun it might be to replicate one of my favorite skins' make up.....

its cool too in second life you can try things on, before you even bother in real life....i was messing with what i would wear on my poor guinea pig av. and then i ended up at grim bros and totally bought the black version of the wireweb dress that i love so much....

la vida galante

Originally uploaded by al-zahra

moving is hateful. and so i haven't been quite my usual self. it is at times like these that i wish i could just have nothing, live simply, and travel in a wonderfully appointed vardo.

with this in mind i went searching high and low in second life looking for a vardo to call my own. but the one i ended up taking home was free, by tooter claxton, with the most wildly hilarious poses, and amazingly funny textures.

as i spun through i was reminded of the colonias, the shantytowns on the border, where people live in school buses and shacks without running water or any sort of convenience.

and of course, being me, i was reminded of the boystown whores in nuevo laredo.....

laredo rose juana wears:

dahlia skin 8 by miasnow
infected shirt by rotten toe
bachelorette skirt by blue blood
dark betrothal stockings by rfyre
carpe noctem boots by nightshade designs
kunstkammer skull necklace and earrings (i saw it on achariya's blog!!! ^^)
schadenfreude coffin ring
gloves and hair rose by gfield
eyes human 21 by primitive design
relia hair by gauze

in a free hobo vardo by tooter claxton
listening to "laredo rose"
performed by the mario escovedo experience

achariya's birthday party

Originally uploaded by al-zahra

it is not every day that a party like this happens. i'd also never really been to a full on japanese themed party, at least not with fashion folk. i was really beside myself with what to wear. i nearly wore my meiji schoolgirl outfit, but at the last minute decided to wear my gothic oiran outfit instead.

the garden itself is quite lovely. we appeared to be dancing on water. i knew very few people there, though everyone was quite kind to me.

achariya wore a sweetaholic wa-loli, with what looked like sinistyle boots and bp hair. her obi was a spotted leopard skin.

momo did the honors as dj, and she wore a nonko kimono, i think the cage one i believe. it is a long black furisode with white images of a young girl. she was wearing a really distinctive hairstyle with it as well, without the bow.

diana wore i think a latex kimono by ookami ningen. i just missed munchflower, who looked so cool--she was wearing mickey mouse ears and looked so dark.

there were others who looked really distinctive. i think it was sakuradawn who was wearing a very unusual outfit, very cool and different. kat was so very nice to me as always, and she wore an adorable pink outfift.

i do not know hya very well at all, but she was impressively elegant, and so i admired her from afar.

it is trying at these things because i never know whether to say hello even if i have never met them before.....

but all in all it was something to remember....

the reigning cyprian

it makes me laugh, because maybe people forget that "actress" meant also "courtesan" for most of history, and so our modern idol worship of them is sort of funny considering.

second life exists to make the impossible happen, and so for an hour or two my little alter ego was transformed into the celebrated (and most probably unwashed) mrs. juana baddeley, actress and reigning cyprian. it sounds demented but i love reading about the lives and times of these grandes horizontales and so i spent my few hours flitting from 18th century sim to 18th century sim just being mrs. baddeley.

but without the leeches, purges, bloodletting, surgery without painkillers, and useless visits to the baths. oh and without blackmailing feminine companions. mrs. baddeley of course would have to go rehearse her play, and so she did. but sadly nobody was there. it's just as well because it was getting way too histrionic i think. perhaps she'd fight about her salary or something. and avoid her pimp of an ex-husband.

being short of money she might pay a little visit to charlotte hayes' nunnery to moonlight for some pocket change. but very discreet of course....wouldn't want to end up on the list of covent garden ladies.

i must confess, one thing really confounds me. how the hell can you pursue this line of work without getting your heavily pomaded and half rotten 'do from getting irretrievably wrecked in the course of discharging your duties? (yeah i said discharge lol) i mean, it just doesn't make sense. perhaps they knew something special that we don't know anymore about having your hair did so that it lasts.

maybe having exerted herself maybe she might eat something, somewhere fashionable, and then speed off to a very august address, for a very private visit to meet one of her benefactors.

another incredulous modern interjection here: all this without antibiotics? and all sorts of omg disgusting venereal disease floating around everywhere? ewww. ewww. not to mention the whole pregnancy and childbirth without painkillers and aieee back alley abortions from hell. i guess these ladies were just made of sterner stuff that we pitiful cossetted modern girls.

sigh. now time to go home and drink a pint of gin and laudanum, and sleep till noon.

the notorious mrs. juana baddeley wears:

jabot, cuffs, jacket, pants (i made them breeches) and tails valerian suit, and caged bird gloves and stockings by silent sparrow
curlicue undershirt from chichi set , shoes mme renaud by cutea bennelli
black pompadour and mourning tricorne by nonna hedges
snow white skin by i forgot.
giltterati earrings by violet voltaire

sexy-land hitman pranker

i can't help it. i just like to prank people. there is just something so infinitely amusing about it. i was dressed as la virgen de los sicarios, and after wandering in midian city for a while, realizing I looked too much like I belonged there, i decided it might be more fun to go somewhere totally unexpected.

i ended up at a place i'd already been, a naughty voyeur motel in SL. i don't cyber, and i think the notion of "sex" in SL is pretty silly (a personal opinion)...and i had been there before to laugh and take a machinima of juana dancing in the peepshow and mostly to gawk at the set up.

i was not disappointed in terms of the silliness factor. there were people wandering about in various states of undress, and after trying out the poses (alone) and screaming with laughter at the simulated avatar sex faces, I went to pose in the peepshow room. to my great amusement someone arrived to watch me though i was only using a bellydance animation. he seemed insensitive to my obvious surprise and joking because i kept asking him if he was serious, how could such an improbable display be so interesting?

i got bored and left the wildly upholstered peepshow room because he horrified me with his susequent chafing of the bish.

as I fled i didn't realize there was an upper level to this build, and so i ascended to investigate. in SL everyone is a peeping tom anyway, with your camera being able to cross walls. and i spied a guy waiting on a bed in one of the rooms.

so i did what came naturally, which is to say i busted in on him with guns drawn pretending to be a hitman.

i forgot in my innocence that this might be construed as a sort of game. i think this what the poor befuddled gentleman thought. he was sending me politely worded yet insistent IMs offering various services. i just laughed and laughed. The whole scene was made even more risible by the sudden arrival of an audience. they were drawn i suppose by the lure of two green dots together on the mini map.
avatars have a very vacant slack jawed look to them that seemed quite appopriate given the circumstances.

i did get bored though and announced to the assembly that i was not there for games, booty, and fun, just playing a prank. and walked back into the downstairs.

the downstairs is incidentally furnished with a naughty cinema. i didn't bother to activate the screen. i was wandering around liking the way the red interior looked with my outfit when several people arrived and sat down in the seats. for the most part they were clothed. but one person felt very moved to remove his clothes in my presence. he had a hilariously impossibly large appendage too. he worked it up and down a few times presumably to get my attention.

i ignored him. and he sat down beside me, with his avatar periodically breaking into an idiotic grin. for some reason he also felt that decorum would be violated if he removed his shoes, and so they stayed on.

i finally became bored and left, presumably never to return. :)

gothic oiran part two

wandering the grimy streets of sick..........

this is one of those outfits, that one must keep picking at like a scab. it is probably among my most favorite outfits. in the intervening days i had bought an Oiran outfit from Sweetaholic, my most favored kimono vendors. I put it on and loved it, but still the gothic oiran wanted to come out. so i went to Sick, a lovely dingy japanese-esque cyberpunk sim, and hung out in a seedy bar......in the interests of hiding ugly prim feet i wore dark tabi, which i hear is a total no-no. but to hell with it, i hate SL feet. And the adorable toothed geta from Sweetaholic--utterly charming...........

the bored and weary oiran wears:

gothic oiran kimono: Illuminati Ouka Saki Some ni Keri
other clothes: Susie Armwarmers barbed wire, trick pants
hair: Sweetaholic Oiran set (comes with combs)
skin: Clown skin (Crossed out)
pipe: (kiseru) Sweetaholic Oiran set
Geta: Sweetaholic Oiran set

rave globales at troys

a fundraiser at odaesan house featuring dj tedi. :) this is a retro-post, meaning, i wore this on the date uploaded but i am only getting around to writing this like a month later. yet another reason to love blogs, because one can do this sort of timetravel without major issues. yet another reason why i seriously doubt anyone in their right mind would bother to read this little diary of mine......

I found the hair and outfit while looking for something else entirely. this appears to be a normal mode of clothing discovery. i am not sure exactly what this might be called, except perhaps club girl-ish......I do love the hair though, it's really well made and has such a lovely wave in it.

stats:
Disturbia Spiders Outfit plus June Starry Night hair from ^;^CaTwA^;^
[rQ]dress~COAT~black(Grunge NekoPunkUrban Style) (with legwarmers)
+Susie+ Goth boots and choker
Wretched dollies tophat
Nomine china white retro 50's skin
Animazoo Belly Dance AO

gothic oiran

Originally uploaded by al-zahra

i meant to post this earlier but sometimes it seems an outfit evolves.....i found this magnificent outfit from a place called "Illuminati." I didn't realize at the time that it was based on an actual outfit worn by a j-rock band. I have always been fascinated by courtesans, and oirans completely enthrall me. when i first got this outfit, i went to a dirty peepshow sim to dance, thinking that it was appropriate for an oiran. but then i laughed because i am sure my friends wondered what the hell i was doing there.

i wonder though what i am truly saying in kimono-ese, to those in the know, but what struck me was the gothic styling of this, and the distinctive front tying obi, which distinguishes it from a geisha's outfit. so i removed some of the pieces and added some gothic accessories like armwarmers and pants, thinking that this is what a cybergothic oiran would wear as she paraded down the street going to her next assignation.

my new favorite outfit
Originally uploaded by al-zahra

this first version stats:

kanzashi: Ookami Ningen Silvered Kanzashi
hair rose: GF suede Black rose hairpin
gothic oiran kimono: Illuminati Ouka Saki Some ni Keri
tother clothes: Susie Armwarmers barbed wire, trick pants, Goth boots
hair: Magika Lucy
skin: Whispers of Night Deathly F Lost Gloom Stalker
fan: Sweetaholic Rose particle fans
Abranimations Geisha dance